Helllooo lovelies!
I am sorry again for my absence. This blog has really lost my interest since it decided to be all broken...
I do feel an obligation to post on wweeeiiggghhh daaaay, however.
For anyone curious about my title, I'll get to that soon.
So... the results!
Last Week: 194.0
This Week: 192.6
A loss of 1.4 pounds.
Now... the way I look at this today: A loss is a loss is a loss. Whether it's half a pound, one pound, or four pounds. So I'm a happy camper. I weigh less than I did last week, and the week before that and the month before that. And isn't that the ultimate goal, anyway?
A rough estimation of my calories for the week were:
Tues, Mar 13 1,361
Wed, Mar 14 1,237
Thus, Mar 15 1,283
Fri, Mar 16 1,171
Sat, Mar 17 ????
Sun, Mar 18 ???? (<700... I'll explain!)
Mon, Mar 19 1,396
Anyone who skimmed those is probably thinking... What the heck, E? What's your problem? What happened Saturday and Sunday?
WELL! The answer to that is... Saint Patrick's Day happened. I went out, innocently enough, for a few drinks. Fully intending on keeping myself in check. However, I ended up going out with someone turning 21, and all their free shots also became free shots for me as well. I don't know why, but I decided in a drunken stupor no doubt, never to decline free shots from a man in green suspenders and a glittery green hat. So I didn't. And that's what happened Saturday.
Then... early Sunday morning consisted mostly of me swearing off alcohol forever, crying, and being violently ill. This, my friends, was not my finest hour. I didn't eat on Sunday until around 7pm, which was coincidentally also the first time I left my bed that day. I'm not exaggerating when I say I drank entirely too much. In fact, it's possible that's an understatement. I'm still feeling the ill effects... which really just tells me I'm getting old.
My small loss is probably a combination of me eating below my calories this week, and then throwing up anything I might have eaten over my calories on Saturday. I'd say my weight loss is slowing because I haven't fully incorporated exercise into my life. Which is something I must do. And soon.
Besides all that, the jeans I'm wearing are making me upset. I know, no one wants to read about someone complaining about clothes not fitting because they're now too big... For some reason, I'm losing weight unproportionally, so my jeans are too loose in my butt, legs, and hips... but still okay in the waist. So I'm walking around all saggy looking. Boo.
That's all for me today! Going to see if there have been any improvments to the commenting situation. My expectations are low...
Here's to hard work and determination!
-E
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Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Day 72 - I'm More Than A Little Annoyed
I'm almost to the point of boycotting this website until they get something fixed. It's driving me insane having to practically hack into my account to sign in, then be unable to comment once I get here. For a while, it was letting me comment if I was running IE... but now every time I get a, "This site has a programming error" screen. Annoying. More than annoying. Get this crap fixed! I accept this is a free service and I should keep my expectations relatively low. However, I see ads all over the place. If the people who maintain this blog are making money off the advertisements, I'd say they need to be fixing this broken crap.
On to other things...
Yesterday I played a fun game called... "It's Warm Outside, Let's See What Spring Clothes Fit Now." It was lots of fun. And I definitely won. I pulled out all my shorts and a couple summery skirt things. I even dug out the stuff at the very bottom of my drawer that had been retired for being too snug/not fitting AT ALL.
All the shorts I was wearing last summer are way loose. Then, all the shorts and things I didn't wear much because they were tight and uncomfortable fit perfectly, if not a tiny bit on the big side. Then I got to the stuff I didn't even bother trying to wear last summer. I have a pair of khaki capris I was wearing when I graduated highschool, we're talking 2007 so that's like 5 years ago. This time last year, I tried them on... couldn't really get them past my hips, cried and took them off. Yesterday, I got them up and buttoned. Now... they are still way too tight to wear in public or for long periods of time. BUT the fact that they fit at all made me really happy, muffin top and all.
I'd found a few more shirts I can fit in more comfortably too. And I'm finding shirts that I'd been wearing the whole time (and probably shouldn't have been) are looking quite awesome on me. Today I'm wearing a shirt that I'm wearing in one of the pictures on my photo page. It's a cotton black short sleeve zip up shirt and I always wear a tank underneath it. It fits so differently on me today than it does in the picture. It's longer and looks less like it's uncomfortably stretched around my body. Pretty freakin' exciting.
So celebrations there.
I'm also still trying to decide what fun things to do with my hair! Even though I know you will not be able to comment... I'm going to be optimistic here. Here's a photo of my hair now... If anyone out there with a flare for hair styles or if I'm really lucky someone who is actually a stylist. Toss me some fun ideas. I'm ready for something new!
I don't know why my face looks 5 shades darker than my neck... and I promise my hair is even on both sides. It's hard to discretely take a photo of yourself in the middle of a computer lab full of people. Haha
I have no idea what I'm doing about meals today... It's a lot of running around and going to class and getting stuff done. I'll probably be very low on calories today. But one or two days of that isn't all that bad, I don't think. Better than WAY too many, in my opinion!
Evvverrrybody have an awesome day!
Here's to hard work and determination, and getting this blog fixed,
-E
On to other things...
Yesterday I played a fun game called... "It's Warm Outside, Let's See What Spring Clothes Fit Now." It was lots of fun. And I definitely won. I pulled out all my shorts and a couple summery skirt things. I even dug out the stuff at the very bottom of my drawer that had been retired for being too snug/not fitting AT ALL.
All the shorts I was wearing last summer are way loose. Then, all the shorts and things I didn't wear much because they were tight and uncomfortable fit perfectly, if not a tiny bit on the big side. Then I got to the stuff I didn't even bother trying to wear last summer. I have a pair of khaki capris I was wearing when I graduated highschool, we're talking 2007 so that's like 5 years ago. This time last year, I tried them on... couldn't really get them past my hips, cried and took them off. Yesterday, I got them up and buttoned. Now... they are still way too tight to wear in public or for long periods of time. BUT the fact that they fit at all made me really happy, muffin top and all.
I'd found a few more shirts I can fit in more comfortably too. And I'm finding shirts that I'd been wearing the whole time (and probably shouldn't have been) are looking quite awesome on me. Today I'm wearing a shirt that I'm wearing in one of the pictures on my photo page. It's a cotton black short sleeve zip up shirt and I always wear a tank underneath it. It fits so differently on me today than it does in the picture. It's longer and looks less like it's uncomfortably stretched around my body. Pretty freakin' exciting.
So celebrations there.
I'm also still trying to decide what fun things to do with my hair! Even though I know you will not be able to comment... I'm going to be optimistic here. Here's a photo of my hair now... If anyone out there with a flare for hair styles or if I'm really lucky someone who is actually a stylist. Toss me some fun ideas. I'm ready for something new!
I don't know why my face looks 5 shades darker than my neck... and I promise my hair is even on both sides. It's hard to discretely take a photo of yourself in the middle of a computer lab full of people. Haha
I have no idea what I'm doing about meals today... It's a lot of running around and going to class and getting stuff done. I'll probably be very low on calories today. But one or two days of that isn't all that bad, I don't think. Better than WAY too many, in my opinion!
Evvverrrybody have an awesome day!
Here's to hard work and determination, and getting this blog fixed,
-E
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Day 70 - It's Far Too Pretty Outside For Me To Feel This Terrible
I have a headache from Hell right now. It's all in my right eye and the right side of my head. It's also making me sick to my stomach and super tired. And obviously, it's really bumming me out. Oh yeah, did I mention it's freakin' 75 degrees out and sunny? Yeah... and all I feel like doing is yacking and going to bed. And maybe cry a little )':
I skipped my first class and slept in this morning. So I weighed myself around 11:45, rather than 7:30 when I normally would have.
Today's weeeiiggghhhh daaaaayyy goes as follows:
2 Weeks Ago: 196.2
This Week: 194.0
A loss of 2.2 pounds.
This is really okay, in my opinion. It seems more likely to me that I maintained the week of Spring Break and then lost this past week. Rather than somehow lost 1 pound over SB eating nonstop garbage and only 1 pound this week, being completely on track everyday but 1.
A rough estimation of my calories for the week were:
Tues, Mar 06 Last Day of Spring Break
Wed, Mar 07 1,258
Thus, Mar 08 1,254
Fri, Mar 09 1,108
Sat, Mar 10 1,354
Sun, Mar 11 1,325
Mon, Mar 12 2,205
Well. As it turns out, I was off plan TWO days this past week. Huh. Well, whatever.
Yesterday, we went to Red Lobster on kind of a whim... I ended up having a Sangeria, Half bf's Salmon, Half my Sirloin with A1 sauce, like 3 coconut jumbo shrimp, steamed broccoli, a cheese biscuit and a half of their crazy Chocolate Chip Molten Lava Cookie with Ice Cream and Magic and Heaven. It was incredible. And all bad. Sooo... that's what happened there.
My head hurts so bad it's making it hard to really concentrate on anything... But I couldn't let TWO wweeeiiggghhh ddaaaays go by without a post. What kind of blogger would I be if I did that?
I did also realize I've reached my first mini goal. I am now a little bitty bit past my 25% mark. So that's extremely exciting and I will be getting my hair did soon. I have been carrying around $100 in my wallet from my birthday that I keep meaning to deposit into my bank. I might just use that and see what kind of amazing things I can have done to my hair. I might chicken out and not do anything too exciting. Either way, I'll post a before and after picture.
Anyone know anything new about the comment stuff being broken. It's kind of hit and miss for me. It's honestly getting on my nerves. It's been a few days too many for something so vital to not be functioning.
I have approximately 1.2 million things to do between today and this time next week. So I'm going to get off here and see if I can't knock a few of those things out right now. Before I make an early retirement to my soft, cushy bed.
Here's to hard work and determination... and my headache letting up.
-E
I skipped my first class and slept in this morning. So I weighed myself around 11:45, rather than 7:30 when I normally would have.
Today's weeeiiggghhhh daaaaayyy goes as follows:
2 Weeks Ago: 196.2
This Week: 194.0
A loss of 2.2 pounds.
This is really okay, in my opinion. It seems more likely to me that I maintained the week of Spring Break and then lost this past week. Rather than somehow lost 1 pound over SB eating nonstop garbage and only 1 pound this week, being completely on track everyday but 1.
A rough estimation of my calories for the week were:
Tues, Mar 06 Last Day of Spring Break
Wed, Mar 07 1,258
Thus, Mar 08 1,254
Fri, Mar 09 1,108
Sat, Mar 10 1,354
Sun, Mar 11 1,325
Mon, Mar 12 2,205
Well. As it turns out, I was off plan TWO days this past week. Huh. Well, whatever.
Yesterday, we went to Red Lobster on kind of a whim... I ended up having a Sangeria, Half bf's Salmon, Half my Sirloin with A1 sauce, like 3 coconut jumbo shrimp, steamed broccoli, a cheese biscuit and a half of their crazy Chocolate Chip Molten Lava Cookie with Ice Cream and Magic and Heaven. It was incredible. And all bad. Sooo... that's what happened there.
My head hurts so bad it's making it hard to really concentrate on anything... But I couldn't let TWO wweeeiiggghhh ddaaaays go by without a post. What kind of blogger would I be if I did that?
I did also realize I've reached my first mini goal. I am now a little bitty bit past my 25% mark. So that's extremely exciting and I will be getting my hair did soon. I have been carrying around $100 in my wallet from my birthday that I keep meaning to deposit into my bank. I might just use that and see what kind of amazing things I can have done to my hair. I might chicken out and not do anything too exciting. Either way, I'll post a before and after picture.
Anyone know anything new about the comment stuff being broken. It's kind of hit and miss for me. It's honestly getting on my nerves. It's been a few days too many for something so vital to not be functioning.
I have approximately 1.2 million things to do between today and this time next week. So I'm going to get off here and see if I can't knock a few of those things out right now. Before I make an early retirement to my soft, cushy bed.
Here's to hard work and determination... and my headache letting up.
-E
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Day 56 - Experiment Successful!
So... who would have thought that eating MORE can actually leading to weight loss when eating less was failing? Yeah... I gave it away, didn't I? Haha Suuuurprise!
As many of you may know by now, and probably many, many more of you don't... Today is weeeeiiigggghhh daaaayy. And the second official rrreeeppooorrtt weeeeekllyy caaaallorriess daaay. (NOT as fun to type OR read).
I'm going to tell ya'll how my weigh in was first, because I'm just a little bit excited. And by a little bit I mean I'm pretty much bubbling over with enthusiasm.
Last Week: 200.2 pounds (for the second week in the row, I might add)
THIS Week: 196.2 pounds
Bing. Bang. Boom.
Down 4 pounds this week. A nice way for my body to make up for not losing ANYTHING last week.
Let me just say... Being below 200 pounds (for the first time in like... years) is pretty much blowing my mind.
So my calories for the past 7 days were as follows...
Tues, Feb 21 1,562
Wed, Feb 22 1,317
Thus, Feb 23 1,366
Fri, Feb 24 1,308
Sat, Feb 25 1,432
Sun, Feb 26 1,315
Mon, Feb 27 1,346
I guess I added around 200 calories to my daily goal... Which seems to have worked very nicely. Therefore, I called this experiment a successful one.
Another fun side effect...
I've always hated and battled with my bras. I do this crazy stretch thing with them when I buy a new one and get it home. Where I probably break half the important stitches in it by wrapping it around my shoulders, then pulling the ends together in front of my body. A trick my (yea, overweight) momma taught me to get my bras to fit more comfortably. Then, it was always always always the very last clasp I would use, to make sure it was as loose and humanly possible.
Today, in order to keep my girls positioned where they should be, I actually had to use the MIDDLE clasp. And I did it by accident. Usually I'd be struggle to get it to fasten on the last clasp and I unintentionally used the middle one because that's just where my hands naturally went. Again... Mind. Blown.
I'm liking these new developments.
I'm wearing a pair of kinda of dumpy, lame jeans today though. Not for any other reason than I'm expecting TOM today... I call them my "Mom Jeans" because they give me what I also like to call a "Mom Butt" which is where my butt looks WAAAY longer than it should. They just aren't flattering. And before anyone hates me... I think mom's are awesome and can be super sexy and I totally plan to be a hot and sexy mom someday. But, you can't deny there are some moms out there that wear those really high waisted jeans that make their butts look 4 miles long.
I have a huge, disgustingly sweet treat waiting for me in the fridge when I get home. I'm probably not going to count my calories today... because I think it'll be really hard to find a calorie count for it. But I'm going to make very healthy choices otherwise for lunch and dinner. It's a piece of Tuxedo Truffle Nepolean Cake... I don't know what inspired me to buy it yesterday... because I'm usually a HELL of a lot more in control than that... but I can't let it go to waste. It was like a $5 piece of cake. I'm only going to eat half. And have bf eat the other half. That's a good plan...Exercise will also be in my evening. To make up for a little bit of it, as well.
This is already too long, so I'm going to wrap it up. I do wanna thank everyone that comments and gives me support and advice. (: And also all you creepy readers that don't comment but read anyway... I know you're out there. And knowing you're all there keeps me coming back and sticking with it. You're awwwwesome people. I really love this little community.
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
Edit: Apparently, after very little searching... A piece of Tuxedo Truffle Napoleon Mousse Cake is around 380 calories. Which means I'll be eating ABOUT 190 calories in my half a piece. Aren't the internets wonderful? I mean just freakin' amazing. Yes... yes they are. haha
As many of you may know by now, and probably many, many more of you don't... Today is weeeeiiigggghhh daaaayy. And the second official rrreeeppooorrtt weeeeekllyy caaaallorriess daaay. (NOT as fun to type OR read).
I'm going to tell ya'll how my weigh in was first, because I'm just a little bit excited. And by a little bit I mean I'm pretty much bubbling over with enthusiasm.
Last Week: 200.2 pounds (for the second week in the row, I might add)
THIS Week: 196.2 pounds
Bing. Bang. Boom.
Down 4 pounds this week. A nice way for my body to make up for not losing ANYTHING last week.
Let me just say... Being below 200 pounds (for the first time in like... years) is pretty much blowing my mind.
So my calories for the past 7 days were as follows...
Tues, Feb 21 1,562
Wed, Feb 22 1,317
Thus, Feb 23 1,366
Fri, Feb 24 1,308
Sat, Feb 25 1,432
Sun, Feb 26 1,315
Mon, Feb 27 1,346
I guess I added around 200 calories to my daily goal... Which seems to have worked very nicely. Therefore, I called this experiment a successful one.
Another fun side effect...
I've always hated and battled with my bras. I do this crazy stretch thing with them when I buy a new one and get it home. Where I probably break half the important stitches in it by wrapping it around my shoulders, then pulling the ends together in front of my body. A trick my (yea, overweight) momma taught me to get my bras to fit more comfortably. Then, it was always always always the very last clasp I would use, to make sure it was as loose and humanly possible.
Today, in order to keep my girls positioned where they should be, I actually had to use the MIDDLE clasp. And I did it by accident. Usually I'd be struggle to get it to fasten on the last clasp and I unintentionally used the middle one because that's just where my hands naturally went. Again... Mind. Blown.
I'm liking these new developments.
I'm wearing a pair of kinda of dumpy, lame jeans today though. Not for any other reason than I'm expecting TOM today... I call them my "Mom Jeans" because they give me what I also like to call a "Mom Butt" which is where my butt looks WAAAY longer than it should. They just aren't flattering. And before anyone hates me... I think mom's are awesome and can be super sexy and I totally plan to be a hot and sexy mom someday. But, you can't deny there are some moms out there that wear those really high waisted jeans that make their butts look 4 miles long.
I have a huge, disgustingly sweet treat waiting for me in the fridge when I get home. I'm probably not going to count my calories today... because I think it'll be really hard to find a calorie count for it. But I'm going to make very healthy choices otherwise for lunch and dinner. It's a piece of Tuxedo Truffle Nepolean Cake... I don't know what inspired me to buy it yesterday... because I'm usually a HELL of a lot more in control than that... but I can't let it go to waste. It was like a $5 piece of cake. I'm only going to eat half. And have bf eat the other half. That's a good plan...Exercise will also be in my evening. To make up for a little bit of it, as well.
This is already too long, so I'm going to wrap it up. I do wanna thank everyone that comments and gives me support and advice. (: And also all you creepy readers that don't comment but read anyway... I know you're out there. And knowing you're all there keeps me coming back and sticking with it. You're awwwwesome people. I really love this little community.
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
Edit: Apparently, after very little searching... A piece of Tuxedo Truffle Napoleon Mousse Cake is around 380 calories. Which means I'll be eating ABOUT 190 calories in my half a piece. Aren't the internets wonderful? I mean just freakin' amazing. Yes... yes they are. haha
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Day 42 - I Am A Rockstar Today
No, seriously. I'm a freakin' rockstar.
So. Where do I even begin? Let's start from the beginning of my day!
NO! We have to start with yesterday after work. I came home to find my new MacBook Pro was delivered a day early! I am so in love with it right now. It's name is Prometheus. (MacBook Pro... Prometheus... Oh yeah, I'm clever. I KNOW) So I am currently typing this blog on my beautiful new baby. I have to stop gushing. But I really do love it and it's so much better than my 5 year old Dell I had been banging away at.
Back on topic... I was so exhausted this morning. I have been congested and my throat is sore and so sleeping is just an all around pain in the ass. I woke up and did what I often do (and it sometimes gets me in trouble). I drug myself out of bed... and straight to the couch. I sat there for probably 10 minutes. Willing myself to move, but pretty much failing. Then I remembered! It's... Weeeeeiiigggghhhh Daaaaay! So I hopped up and got on my scale. Weighing only once a week is without a doubt the way to do it, in my opinion.
Sooo....
Last Week: 205.0
THIS Week: 200.2
My jaw pretty much dropped. It bounced around between 199.8 and 201.0 and finally settled on 200.2. I weighed 3 times just to make sure it was accurate. I could just die.
-4.8 pounds this week! Definitely met my 1 pound goal and DEFINITELY made up for a measly .4 pound loss last week!
So let's just say, I'm really thrilled about that. I can honestly see small changes now too. Like, really see them. I'm wearing my not so fat jeans today and they are fitting perfectly, I might add. (:
I'm so close to being down 20 pounds. Exactly 19.8 pounds so far. Damn it feels so good to see those numbers dropping and starting to see and feel difference in my body is just so rewarding.
THEN! I get to class a few minutes early and find out the prof didn't hand back the exam on Thursday (which I missed). This makes me happy, because I hate missing the day we discuss the exam. This is my Industrial Psych class, for those of you who care? lol. Anyway... He gave a little speech about how difficult this test was for people and how there was a huge range of scores from awesome to "Why did you bother taking it at all?" I knew for sure I was the latter. Then I get it back to find out I got a 103/100 because there was a 3point bonus question. Freakin' blew my mind.
The rest of the day will undoubtably be uneventful. Bf won't be meeting me for lunch because he's tied up with homework. I was also too sick/lazy to pack anything last night or this morning. So I tossed a meal bar in my bag and decided that combined with breakfast would have to tied me over till I got home and heated up something for dinner. As boring as the rest of the day might be for me... The natural high of a 4.8 pound loss and a 103% on my exam will keeping me going for at least 2 days...
Today is also Valentine's Day. So Happy Valentine's Day! I know a lot of you out there are probably proponents of doing something unconventional for Valentine's Day and avoiding the box of chocolates. And I have to agree, it's a way better idea. But I am a chocolate fiend. And I need some truffles today or I will just die. This isn't going to be, "Go crazy and eat everything in sight" day like Superbowl... but I am totally buying something for myself. Bf and I agreed to skip it this year. We get totally slammed around this time of year because it's Christmas, his bday, my bday, and Valentine's day all in like a 3 month span. We go all out for Christmas and bdays and then just kinda skim over V-day.
I'm going to install Photoshop CS5 and Microsoft Office for Mac onto my new pretty now. I wish I could share all my happy and positivity with you guys, cause I have a ton to go around today and that's pretty unusual for me. Just stick with it, everybody! Good days always come around, you just have to get through the bad ones to get there sometimes!
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
Edit: Bf and I decided to share a box of chocolates and have a nice dinner at a Hibachi grill not far from our apartment. My Stats prof also passed out fancy wedding cake flavored cupcakes, which I shared with bf. All together... I ate around 2,126 calories today. A very rough estimation. I also just weighed myself and the scale read a very ugly 205.2. But I'm not reading anything into THAT. I have lots of food in my belly and it's way later than I ever weigh myself. So that's my Valentine's Day. 788 calories over my normal limit. Which means I should really only gain like... not even a quarter of a pound. If I gain anything at all from it. I'm being crazy. Just wanted to let you all know how I was insane and ate the entire Japanese Hibachi grill and like half a box of chocolates. haha Enjoy your days!!
So. Where do I even begin? Let's start from the beginning of my day!
NO! We have to start with yesterday after work. I came home to find my new MacBook Pro was delivered a day early! I am so in love with it right now. It's name is Prometheus. (MacBook Pro... Prometheus... Oh yeah, I'm clever. I KNOW) So I am currently typing this blog on my beautiful new baby. I have to stop gushing. But I really do love it and it's so much better than my 5 year old Dell I had been banging away at.
Back on topic... I was so exhausted this morning. I have been congested and my throat is sore and so sleeping is just an all around pain in the ass. I woke up and did what I often do (and it sometimes gets me in trouble). I drug myself out of bed... and straight to the couch. I sat there for probably 10 minutes. Willing myself to move, but pretty much failing. Then I remembered! It's... Weeeeeiiigggghhhh Daaaaay! So I hopped up and got on my scale. Weighing only once a week is without a doubt the way to do it, in my opinion.
Sooo....
Last Week: 205.0
THIS Week: 200.2
My jaw pretty much dropped. It bounced around between 199.8 and 201.0 and finally settled on 200.2. I weighed 3 times just to make sure it was accurate. I could just die.
-4.8 pounds this week! Definitely met my 1 pound goal and DEFINITELY made up for a measly .4 pound loss last week!
So let's just say, I'm really thrilled about that. I can honestly see small changes now too. Like, really see them. I'm wearing my not so fat jeans today and they are fitting perfectly, I might add. (:
I'm so close to being down 20 pounds. Exactly 19.8 pounds so far. Damn it feels so good to see those numbers dropping and starting to see and feel difference in my body is just so rewarding.
THEN! I get to class a few minutes early and find out the prof didn't hand back the exam on Thursday (which I missed). This makes me happy, because I hate missing the day we discuss the exam. This is my Industrial Psych class, for those of you who care? lol. Anyway... He gave a little speech about how difficult this test was for people and how there was a huge range of scores from awesome to "Why did you bother taking it at all?" I knew for sure I was the latter. Then I get it back to find out I got a 103/100 because there was a 3point bonus question. Freakin' blew my mind.
The rest of the day will undoubtably be uneventful. Bf won't be meeting me for lunch because he's tied up with homework. I was also too sick/lazy to pack anything last night or this morning. So I tossed a meal bar in my bag and decided that combined with breakfast would have to tied me over till I got home and heated up something for dinner. As boring as the rest of the day might be for me... The natural high of a 4.8 pound loss and a 103% on my exam will keeping me going for at least 2 days...
Today is also Valentine's Day. So Happy Valentine's Day! I know a lot of you out there are probably proponents of doing something unconventional for Valentine's Day and avoiding the box of chocolates. And I have to agree, it's a way better idea. But I am a chocolate fiend. And I need some truffles today or I will just die. This isn't going to be, "Go crazy and eat everything in sight" day like Superbowl... but I am totally buying something for myself. Bf and I agreed to skip it this year. We get totally slammed around this time of year because it's Christmas, his bday, my bday, and Valentine's day all in like a 3 month span. We go all out for Christmas and bdays and then just kinda skim over V-day.
I'm going to install Photoshop CS5 and Microsoft Office for Mac onto my new pretty now. I wish I could share all my happy and positivity with you guys, cause I have a ton to go around today and that's pretty unusual for me. Just stick with it, everybody! Good days always come around, you just have to get through the bad ones to get there sometimes!
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
Edit: Bf and I decided to share a box of chocolates and have a nice dinner at a Hibachi grill not far from our apartment. My Stats prof also passed out fancy wedding cake flavored cupcakes, which I shared with bf. All together... I ate around 2,126 calories today. A very rough estimation. I also just weighed myself and the scale read a very ugly 205.2. But I'm not reading anything into THAT. I have lots of food in my belly and it's way later than I ever weigh myself. So that's my Valentine's Day. 788 calories over my normal limit. Which means I should really only gain like... not even a quarter of a pound. If I gain anything at all from it. I'm being crazy. Just wanted to let you all know how I was insane and ate the entire Japanese Hibachi grill and like half a box of chocolates. haha Enjoy your days!!
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Day 35 - Another Impossibly Long Day
Wow... So I was typing this up in IE... but then it decided to crap out on me and just completely stop working. I should have known...
Sooo... (Once again) This is going to be a short little post. And honest to goodness short post... not one where I say it'll be short and then before I know it I've written 1,500 words.
I weighed today. I knew I shouldn't get TOO excited... But I wasn't necessarily disappointed either.
Last Week - 205.4
This Week - 205.0
So, a -0.4 pound loss. That's a heck of a lot better than a gain and even a little better than maintaining... So I'm satisfied. I wanna be a little dissappointed it wasn't more... but considering I lost 5 pounds last week, I'll take the tiny loss this week. I figure if anything this week has confirmed last week's loss, since I didn't gain it back.
This past week wasn't bad besides Sunday, but I still wasn't expecting great things this morning on the scale.
Now... I've taken my Industrial Psych exam already this morning. I'm going to have a salad from the campus buffet style lunch (I brought my own dressing because I'm a crazy control freak). Then I'm going to go to a few more classes, learn some stuff, do grocery shopping on the way home, clean my entire apartment, go back to campus for a club meeting, then meet bf's brother somewhere in town for hanging out-ness.
Whew. These long days kill me. Especially since I slept a whopping 5 hours last night. But, I do it to myself. So what can ya do?
Everyone have an incredible day! And since I keep reminding myself of this... I'll tell you too. This is a life long journey to health... It won't happen over night. Small steps everyday and even though sometimes those steps seem bigger some weeks than others... You're still moving forward. Just don't quit altogether!
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
Sooo... (Once again) This is going to be a short little post. And honest to goodness short post... not one where I say it'll be short and then before I know it I've written 1,500 words.
I weighed today. I knew I shouldn't get TOO excited... But I wasn't necessarily disappointed either.
Last Week - 205.4
This Week - 205.0
So, a -0.4 pound loss. That's a heck of a lot better than a gain and even a little better than maintaining... So I'm satisfied. I wanna be a little dissappointed it wasn't more... but considering I lost 5 pounds last week, I'll take the tiny loss this week. I figure if anything this week has confirmed last week's loss, since I didn't gain it back.
This past week wasn't bad besides Sunday, but I still wasn't expecting great things this morning on the scale.
Now... I've taken my Industrial Psych exam already this morning. I'm going to have a salad from the campus buffet style lunch (I brought my own dressing because I'm a crazy control freak). Then I'm going to go to a few more classes, learn some stuff, do grocery shopping on the way home, clean my entire apartment, go back to campus for a club meeting, then meet bf's brother somewhere in town for hanging out-ness.
Whew. These long days kill me. Especially since I slept a whopping 5 hours last night. But, I do it to myself. So what can ya do?
Everyone have an incredible day! And since I keep reminding myself of this... I'll tell you too. This is a life long journey to health... It won't happen over night. Small steps everyday and even though sometimes those steps seem bigger some weeks than others... You're still moving forward. Just don't quit altogether!
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Day 30 - Officially One Month In.
I think this post might be a bit complain-y. And also short. And probably riddled with typos.
So lots of excitment for my 1 month success. I feel like it's something noteable, because I can honestly say that I have been about 85-90% on plan for 30 entire days. Which is no small feat for me.
I didn't sleep very well last night. It probably didn't help that it was f*#$ing 45 degrees last night and for some reason, and since it's FEBRUARY and I refuse to turn on my A/C my apt stayed right at 78 ALL NIGHT. Which is just entirely too warm for me to sleep in. I prefer it to be much cooler in my room. So I can cuddle up beside bf and be toasty under the covers... Not too hot under ONE sheet.
So I had one of those fall-asleep-and-wake-up-every-15-minute nights. Basically the worst.
And I am dragging today. Just dragging. Even my morning coffee didn't perk me up. Blaaah
So, in one month I've managed to lose around 15 pounds. Honestly...technically... 14.6 pounds. Which makes me very, very happy. I'm wearing my not-so-fat jeans today. They are a pair I've been wearing for like 5 years now, because I absolutely love them. But they got a little too tight for a few months and I kind of stopped wearing them and switched to fat-jeans. It makes me happy that they fit again. They aren't as loose as they have been in the past, but noooo muffin top either! (:
I have also seen a fair amount of change in my face. It's less puffy than it had been. Looking at Thanksgiving/Christmas pictures, I can see just a little less roundness happening. I'd really like to start loosing in my fingers too. They aren't super fat, I guess... but I used to wear a size 6.5-7 and now I'm more like a 7.5 and all my pretty rings are too snug and I'm too proud to get the resized. Because, WHAT'S the point of that? I'm going to get all healthy and need them smaller again anyway, duh.
I am also very pround of myself... Today is the day I'm on campus for right at 12 hours. I get here at like 8:30a and I don't get out of my last class till 9p. So if I don't wanna eat at the BK on campus or try to just completely guess about the healthiest choices in the cafeteria... I have to bring my lunch AND dinner. Which is exactly what I did!
One salad with shredded turkey, a string cheese cut up, tons of veggies, pico de gallo, and some yummy salsa ranch yogurt dressing.
A big bowl of sliced strawberries and about a 1/2 of grapes.
Then a stupid, but almost kinda healthy, vaccum sealed meal for dinner. It's not the best, but considering what I have to work with... I can't be picky. Then an apple and a caramel rice cake. I know... you're probably thinking... Seriously? A rice cake? ...YES! They are delicious if you buy the right ones! haha
I usually love writing on this during the day... but today I just feel like I should be more productive. I have an exam in Research Methods and Statistics in like... 4 hours. And I know if I don't spend some time on it, it's going to kick my ass. Then I need to start thinking about a term paper for Industrial Psych. Oh... and one for Clinical Psych. Oh oh, and another for Psychometrics. ): I love psychology... but why does every single class have to end with a 10-12 page paper? Can't me loving it be enough? haha
Everyone go out and make your days awesome! I'm definitely not one to say that today... because I'm kinda walking around half dead and looking like I hate the world. But... do better than me today. haha
H t H W & D,
-E
PS: I really need to start exercising more. I've got the eating healthy foods and moderation on lock, I think. But why can't I master this get my ass moving stuff too? Ugh ):
So lots of excitment for my 1 month success. I feel like it's something noteable, because I can honestly say that I have been about 85-90% on plan for 30 entire days. Which is no small feat for me.
I didn't sleep very well last night. It probably didn't help that it was f*#$ing 45 degrees last night and for some reason, and since it's FEBRUARY and I refuse to turn on my A/C my apt stayed right at 78 ALL NIGHT. Which is just entirely too warm for me to sleep in. I prefer it to be much cooler in my room. So I can cuddle up beside bf and be toasty under the covers... Not too hot under ONE sheet.
So I had one of those fall-asleep-and-wake-up-every-15-minute nights. Basically the worst.
And I am dragging today. Just dragging. Even my morning coffee didn't perk me up. Blaaah
So, in one month I've managed to lose around 15 pounds. Honestly...technically... 14.6 pounds. Which makes me very, very happy. I'm wearing my not-so-fat jeans today. They are a pair I've been wearing for like 5 years now, because I absolutely love them. But they got a little too tight for a few months and I kind of stopped wearing them and switched to fat-jeans. It makes me happy that they fit again. They aren't as loose as they have been in the past, but noooo muffin top either! (:
I have also seen a fair amount of change in my face. It's less puffy than it had been. Looking at Thanksgiving/Christmas pictures, I can see just a little less roundness happening. I'd really like to start loosing in my fingers too. They aren't super fat, I guess... but I used to wear a size 6.5-7 and now I'm more like a 7.5 and all my pretty rings are too snug and I'm too proud to get the resized. Because, WHAT'S the point of that? I'm going to get all healthy and need them smaller again anyway, duh.
I am also very pround of myself... Today is the day I'm on campus for right at 12 hours. I get here at like 8:30a and I don't get out of my last class till 9p. So if I don't wanna eat at the BK on campus or try to just completely guess about the healthiest choices in the cafeteria... I have to bring my lunch AND dinner. Which is exactly what I did!
One salad with shredded turkey, a string cheese cut up, tons of veggies, pico de gallo, and some yummy salsa ranch yogurt dressing.
A big bowl of sliced strawberries and about a 1/2 of grapes.
Then a stupid, but almost kinda healthy, vaccum sealed meal for dinner. It's not the best, but considering what I have to work with... I can't be picky. Then an apple and a caramel rice cake. I know... you're probably thinking... Seriously? A rice cake? ...YES! They are delicious if you buy the right ones! haha
I usually love writing on this during the day... but today I just feel like I should be more productive. I have an exam in Research Methods and Statistics in like... 4 hours. And I know if I don't spend some time on it, it's going to kick my ass. Then I need to start thinking about a term paper for Industrial Psych. Oh... and one for Clinical Psych. Oh oh, and another for Psychometrics. ): I love psychology... but why does every single class have to end with a 10-12 page paper? Can't me loving it be enough? haha
Everyone go out and make your days awesome! I'm definitely not one to say that today... because I'm kinda walking around half dead and looking like I hate the world. But... do better than me today. haha
H t H W & D,
-E
PS: I really need to start exercising more. I've got the eating healthy foods and moderation on lock, I think. But why can't I master this get my ass moving stuff too? Ugh ):
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Day 28 - Good News and Bad News
So... Which one should I discuss first? Since they are (I think) very closely related, I'll start with the bad news so I can end with the good news. Or good-ish news, depending on how you wanna view it.
But this can't be a long post because I have a stupid debriefing statement to write. I've designed and am going to start conducting my very own undergrad research project. It's pretty exciting but they make you jump through a bunch of hoops and are very picky when it comes to the acceptance process. Just making sure I'm being all ethical and stuff... woo
So today is Tuesday, which means it is my weeeeiighh daaaay. I think I do that every time. Draw out weeeeeiiggghh daaaay. I hope you guys read it in an epic, booming voice. Make it a little dramatic. haha
But first, the bad news. The past... I'd say 15 hours or so, I've been super sick. Not really sick, I guess. I just think I've picked up a stomach bug. And without going into great, icky detail... Whatever goes in, comes out fairly quickly. And I'm not throwing up. I think that sums it up. I'm not sure if it's something I ate or just something I've picked up... But I hope it stops soon. It seems like I'm always having some kind of digestion issues.
Good news! Now that's I've shared such... intimate... information with you all. There is a "silver lining" if you wanna call it that?? I definitely lost weight this week... 5 pounds to be exact.
Last Weight: 210.4
Today's Weight: 205.4
I loss worth celebrating... if I believed it was accurate. I'm willing to bet I gain a little back. Which I am MORE than okay with if it means everything going back to normal. I hate feeling all sickly. Also, I think a 5lb loss in a week is a bit extreme. I'm attributing it to the very empty stomach this morning...
So, unfortunately I have nothing else to add because I have pressing matters to attend to this morning... But I wanted to let you all know about my weigh in! Accountability, and all.
Also... I recently discovered something called PB2. If you haven't heard of it, I recommend checking it out on Amazon. It's powdered peanut butter. You mix it with water if you want peanut butter... but I've been using it in smoothies. It's very tasty, all natural, and has like 85% less calories and a lot less fat than normal peanut butter. It's like 45 calories for 2TBSP and like 1.5g fat. I had a banana PB2 smoothie this morning that was just awesome. Only draw back is I keep burping banana. NOT the best. :-p
Okay! I'm done for now! Everyone go out and have incredible and successful days!
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
But this can't be a long post because I have a stupid debriefing statement to write. I've designed and am going to start conducting my very own undergrad research project. It's pretty exciting but they make you jump through a bunch of hoops and are very picky when it comes to the acceptance process. Just making sure I'm being all ethical and stuff... woo
So today is Tuesday, which means it is my weeeeiighh daaaay. I think I do that every time. Draw out weeeeeiiggghh daaaay. I hope you guys read it in an epic, booming voice. Make it a little dramatic. haha
But first, the bad news. The past... I'd say 15 hours or so, I've been super sick. Not really sick, I guess. I just think I've picked up a stomach bug. And without going into great, icky detail... Whatever goes in, comes out fairly quickly. And I'm not throwing up. I think that sums it up. I'm not sure if it's something I ate or just something I've picked up... But I hope it stops soon. It seems like I'm always having some kind of digestion issues.
Good news! Now that's I've shared such... intimate... information with you all. There is a "silver lining" if you wanna call it that?? I definitely lost weight this week... 5 pounds to be exact.
Last Weight: 210.4
Today's Weight: 205.4
I loss worth celebrating... if I believed it was accurate. I'm willing to bet I gain a little back. Which I am MORE than okay with if it means everything going back to normal. I hate feeling all sickly. Also, I think a 5lb loss in a week is a bit extreme. I'm attributing it to the very empty stomach this morning...
So, unfortunately I have nothing else to add because I have pressing matters to attend to this morning... But I wanted to let you all know about my weigh in! Accountability, and all.
Also... I recently discovered something called PB2. If you haven't heard of it, I recommend checking it out on Amazon. It's powdered peanut butter. You mix it with water if you want peanut butter... but I've been using it in smoothies. It's very tasty, all natural, and has like 85% less calories and a lot less fat than normal peanut butter. It's like 45 calories for 2TBSP and like 1.5g fat. I had a banana PB2 smoothie this morning that was just awesome. Only draw back is I keep burping banana. NOT the best. :-p
Okay! I'm done for now! Everyone go out and have incredible and successful days!
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Day 21 - I Think I'm Really Doing It This Time.
So I forgot my iPhone on the kitchen bar this morning. It's a sad thing, but I feel like I left my head on the bar. Or maybe my left foot. I feel like I'm missing some huge part of my body. Oh well! I will get through... Only 6 more hours till we are reunited. Oh my god. SIX HOURS??? ...moving on.
Today was my weeeeeigh daaaaay. And I have more good news to report! Without my phone, where I keep track of all this info, I'll have to do it from memory. But that won't be difficult.
According to my killer math skills... That's 3.8 down for the week and 9.6 down from my start weight.
Now, some people (myself included) may feel this is kind of fast... But I don't necessarily think it's unhealthy. I think I probably had some water weight to shed, and the rest is the result of small meals, spaced out the entire day. Approximately every 2 hours (occasionally more like 3-4) and never exceeding 450 calories each. I'm literally almost never hungry. And I'm always guzzling tons of water. My calories each day are always at least 1200 and I prefer to be at 1350, or I start feeling kinda blah.
While I'm not interested in lectures, because I tend to get a little defensive (character flaw, sorry), I am interested in some opinions... I am probably, maybe going to post it on the forum for opinion also, but.... It's 1350cals/day too low? Should I be eating more? Is a 3.8lb loss in a week a sign I'm not eating enough or just a super awesome result of healthy, mindful eating? Health is important to me, and while I never feel like I'm starving or being deprived, I also don't want to unknowingly do damage to my body. So please, constructive criticism, if you don't mind. Thank you (:
I don't have much else to say this morning. The day is still young (and phone-less). I see a lot of reading from my I/O Psych, Clinical Psych, and Stats book in my very near future. Probably tonight. Along with some butt-kicking elliptical time and a little laundry. Don't everyone be too jealous of all the fun I'm going to be having!! (;
I want every single one of you to have the best days you can!
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
Today was my weeeeeigh daaaaay. And I have more good news to report! Without my phone, where I keep track of all this info, I'll have to do it from memory. But that won't be difficult.
My start weight on Jan 3 was 220.0
My last weigh in on Jan 17 was 214.2
TODAY, Jan 24 it issss......... 210.4!!
According to my killer math skills... That's 3.8 down for the week and 9.6 down from my start weight.
Now, some people (myself included) may feel this is kind of fast... But I don't necessarily think it's unhealthy. I think I probably had some water weight to shed, and the rest is the result of small meals, spaced out the entire day. Approximately every 2 hours (occasionally more like 3-4) and never exceeding 450 calories each. I'm literally almost never hungry. And I'm always guzzling tons of water. My calories each day are always at least 1200 and I prefer to be at 1350, or I start feeling kinda blah.
While I'm not interested in lectures, because I tend to get a little defensive (character flaw, sorry), I am interested in some opinions... I am probably, maybe going to post it on the forum for opinion also, but.... It's 1350cals/day too low? Should I be eating more? Is a 3.8lb loss in a week a sign I'm not eating enough or just a super awesome result of healthy, mindful eating? Health is important to me, and while I never feel like I'm starving or being deprived, I also don't want to unknowingly do damage to my body. So please, constructive criticism, if you don't mind. Thank you (:
I don't have much else to say this morning. The day is still young (and phone-less). I see a lot of reading from my I/O Psych, Clinical Psych, and Stats book in my very near future. Probably tonight. Along with some butt-kicking elliptical time and a little laundry. Don't everyone be too jealous of all the fun I'm going to be having!! (;
I want every single one of you to have the best days you can!
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
Monday, January 23, 2012
Day 20 - Hot, sweaty, and kinda anxious...
Hello everyone!
I haven't updated for a couple days. I didn't stop for any reason in particular... Just nothing special to really note. I worked all week. I stayed at or below my calories for all 3 days and 2 of the 3 days I did some kind of exercise. Not a ton of exercise, mind you. But anything is better than nothing!
I feel like I have a bunch of things I wanna talk about! Let's see if I can organize them into coherent thoughts...
For you calorie counters out there... I have fallen head over heels for an app I have had forever and only just recently started using. It's called "Lose It!" I have an iPhone, so I know it's available for the Apple devices, Android I'm not so sure. But it's definitely worth a look! At first, it seems like a run-of-the-mill food logger. However, it has so many features I just adore.
I haven't updated for a couple days. I didn't stop for any reason in particular... Just nothing special to really note. I worked all week. I stayed at or below my calories for all 3 days and 2 of the 3 days I did some kind of exercise. Not a ton of exercise, mind you. But anything is better than nothing!
I feel like I have a bunch of things I wanna talk about! Let's see if I can organize them into coherent thoughts...
For you calorie counters out there... I have fallen head over heels for an app I have had forever and only just recently started using. It's called "Lose It!" I have an iPhone, so I know it's available for the Apple devices, Android I'm not so sure. But it's definitely worth a look! At first, it seems like a run-of-the-mill food logger. However, it has so many features I just adore.
First, you can set up a weight loss program. So I put in my sex, age, weight, height, and my goal weight. Then it asked me how much I want to lose per week. Then it calculates an estimated goal completion date based on all the info. It gives you the number of calories you should eat per day to achieve your goal.
Next, it keeps track of your calories every day, shows you where you are in reference to your daily calories goals with a little bar graph. I'm going to attach a screen shot, since it's sooo cool and all.
The thing I love, is the ease it makes logging food. If you are eating fresh foods, then obviously you just search for the food in their HUGE database and enter how much of the food you ate. But! If you are eating ANYTHING with a barcode, all you do is scan the bar code and it instantly recognizes the food, as well as the entire nutritional info and how much is in each serving. It makes logging in a meal as easy as taking a picture of a bar code. Pretty much amazing.
You can also input exercise and it keeps track of that in your daily food log as well.
For those of you interested in things other than calories, it keeps and daily tally and weekly average of all your nutrients. I like to watch my fiber, carbs and sodium as well.
And of course, a fitness app isn't complete without a weight tracker. You can track your weight as often as you like and it plots it on a line graph for you. Which I also love.
OMG INSERTING PHOTOS IS ENTIRELY TOO HEAD-ACHY!
Now... I apologize for the crappy quality. But I saved them as gif's and this is what I got. I just wanted to share my awesome APP with all of you. I really do love it.
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Now... back to talking about things. I also dusted off the ol' elliptical today. I know, I haven't mentioned it. I have a home-elliptical in the corner of my living room that I hadn't used in months. It's a shame, I know. And for a long time, including just recently, it has made me feel worthless and lazy when I looked at it. So tonight I decided to do something about that! And I hopped on it. For exactly 16 minutes. That was about all I could do. It was on medium intensity. But it certainly worked me out. According to my app and the elliptical I burnt around 230 calories in 16 minutes. That makes me really happy. I'm sweating up a storm right now, too.
I never use exercise as an excuse to eat more though. That's one thing I don't like about this app. I think I want to stay under 1500 (usually more like 1350) AND exercise. It doesn't make sense to me to eat more because I've exercised. Then, what's the point?
Tomorrow is my weigh day and I am SO anxious. I try not to get so excited... on the chance I don't change or god forbid GAIN! But I wanna see those numbers go doooown! Hopefully tomorrow is the day for that! (:
Also, and it may be in my head, my work clothes are starting to feel just a teeny-tiny bit looser. It could be in my head, but either way it's very encouraging and makes me wanna keep going.
I'm a little more scattered brained than I originally thought. I can't think of a single thing I wanted to talk about. Geez... Brain fart. Oh well. I'll think of it later and I'll definitely include it tomorrow with my weigh in. Which I'm hoping *fingers crossed* will be down. 2 pounds would be incredible.
OH! I remember... This is what happens when I get bored, and thinking about my weight, and have access to Excel. Observe:
Oh geez. It's tiny. Click on it. I think that remedies the problem.
I don't know if I'm setting myself up to fail, or if this is a good, goal setting, motivational tool. But... but enjoyed making it. And it's pretty sweet, IMHO. (;
Okay. I'm done for the night. Time for a shower and a little How I Met Your Mother on Netflix!
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
Friday, January 20, 2012
Day 17 - And Without Further Ado...
Hello everyone!
As promised, I will be attaching all sorts of photos to this post (some awesome, some NOT). I have to control myself a little bit though. Going back through all my pictures, I ended up with like 16 I wanted to post. Which is just crazy. But I'll post enough to let you see how insane my weight has fluctuated the past 4-5 years.
But I'm going to talk first!
I only work Fri, Sat, Sun, Mon every week because of classes. But they are always long shifts (9-10 hours) and by the end of the day I am usually freakin beat. Today I worked early. I'm kind of the designated opener in my little corner of the store. Which suits me, because even though I'm not much of a morning person, I love having my evenings to myself. I also find I can control my eating habits better if I am up early.
The past few days have been really great on the nutrition front. I have been eating a lot of Healthy Choice and Lean Cuisine meals. Most of the time I pick ones that are lower in calories, then add things like veggies or fruit or low-fat dairy to them. They aren't very satisfying alone usually, but I can tack on some healthy sides and I'm good to go. Snacking has been minimal, and when I DO snack, it's always something like apples or almonds or a 100 cal pack. OH! And string cheese. Low fat, of course. But YUM.
I'm also a crazy dancing machine. Yesterday I spent another hour playing Just Dance 2 in my living room. I even drug bf off the couch to dance a few duets with me. haha It's really fun, and you definitely feel the burn after a while, especially if you really try to match what the person on the screen is doing. I was doing all kinds of arm motions and kicks and squats and hops. There's a mode in the game called "Just Sweat" where it keeps track of your songs and how much you moved around, then awards you "sweat points" at the end. According to the game's manufacturer, for every 4.2 sweat points, you burn 1 calorie. Naturally, this is an estimate and would vary enormously between people... But I earned like 2,500 of these "sweat points" which would supposedly equal like 595calories. Not sure I buy that. But I could believe 300, maybe? Not a bad workout, considering it's a super fun video game. Also, I look ridiculous playing it. (:
Alright... Enough chit-chatting. Let's see if I can master this photo stuff... I'll be adding then in chronological order, starting around age 18. Ok go! Also, it appears you can click on these to make them bigger... A few of them are really small?
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
As promised, I will be attaching all sorts of photos to this post (some awesome, some NOT). I have to control myself a little bit though. Going back through all my pictures, I ended up with like 16 I wanted to post. Which is just crazy. But I'll post enough to let you see how insane my weight has fluctuated the past 4-5 years.
But I'm going to talk first!
I only work Fri, Sat, Sun, Mon every week because of classes. But they are always long shifts (9-10 hours) and by the end of the day I am usually freakin beat. Today I worked early. I'm kind of the designated opener in my little corner of the store. Which suits me, because even though I'm not much of a morning person, I love having my evenings to myself. I also find I can control my eating habits better if I am up early.
The past few days have been really great on the nutrition front. I have been eating a lot of Healthy Choice and Lean Cuisine meals. Most of the time I pick ones that are lower in calories, then add things like veggies or fruit or low-fat dairy to them. They aren't very satisfying alone usually, but I can tack on some healthy sides and I'm good to go. Snacking has been minimal, and when I DO snack, it's always something like apples or almonds or a 100 cal pack. OH! And string cheese. Low fat, of course. But YUM.
I'm also a crazy dancing machine. Yesterday I spent another hour playing Just Dance 2 in my living room. I even drug bf off the couch to dance a few duets with me. haha It's really fun, and you definitely feel the burn after a while, especially if you really try to match what the person on the screen is doing. I was doing all kinds of arm motions and kicks and squats and hops. There's a mode in the game called "Just Sweat" where it keeps track of your songs and how much you moved around, then awards you "sweat points" at the end. According to the game's manufacturer, for every 4.2 sweat points, you burn 1 calorie. Naturally, this is an estimate and would vary enormously between people... But I earned like 2,500 of these "sweat points" which would supposedly equal like 595calories. Not sure I buy that. But I could believe 300, maybe? Not a bad workout, considering it's a super fun video game. Also, I look ridiculous playing it. (:
Alright... Enough chit-chatting. Let's see if I can master this photo stuff... I'll be adding then in chronological order, starting around age 18. Ok go! Also, it appears you can click on these to make them bigger... A few of them are really small?
Me, 18
Also about 18. This was my little sister's Halloween Costume. She's 6 years younger than me. I was just goofing off.
I think I was 19 in this one. NOT the most attractive. We were on vacation and I'd just woken up. But still on the slimmer side.
Definitely 19 here. Off taking pictures somewhere. I don't have a ton of full body shots. I had gained a little weight between the last picture and this one.
20 here. Putting on more weight, slowly.
Me at work... Laaaame. This is only 3 months later, but there's a pretty big weight difference!
Me, 20 still, another "picture taking" picture.
This was a little less than a year ago. When I first moved into my apartment. This is on here for good measure, to make sure you can all see how chunky I got. haha But not for much longer!
There's also almost an entire year unaccounted for... But I just stopped liking my picture taken. Sooo... ya know.
I was once a normal weight, and I will be there again! Enjoy, everyone!
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Day 14 - Offically two weeks in AND my weigh in day!!!!
Okay... All I can say right now is since around 7:30 when I got up and weighed myself, I could not WAIT to get on here and tell everyone the awesome news. But, a fun story first!
So last night I talked bf into going grocery shopping with me. And while we were walking around the store, I was telling him about how I wanted to skip the junk and buy more healthy foods. And without any prodding or persuasion AT ALL he said he had noticed how differently I'd been eating and he wanted to join me. He wants to lose around 25 pounds. No where near how much I want to lose, but I absolutely LOVE that he wants to join me in this lifestyle change and I'm so excited he's taking an interest in his weight and health 100% on his own. So, I officially have a live-in diet partner! (:
We bought all sorts of fruits and veggies and did some healthy meal planning. We are going to incorporate more fish into our diet, less starches, and we are going to reduce our sodium. And of course lots more raw/steamed veggies. He's more interested in the sodium reduction while I'm more concerned about calories, bad fats, and sugars. But we are totally on the same page and I LOVE it!
After shopping and enjoying a healthy dinner, we were chatting on the couch and the mention of weight came up. I told him I hadn't weighed myself in two weeks and I was really excited to see how much it'd changed. And that if it didn't change... I refused to be upset and let it deter me. So he asked me what I started at, and of course I told me. (We are way past being embarrassed about things like that...) So he decided to go weigh himself, and I went with him.
Then he tried getting me on the scale. I am a stickler about weighing at approximately the same time, on the same day, so I was adamantly against it. He said he really wanted to see, because he felt he'd be more motivated to try if he knew it made a difference. So I told him I'd step on the scale and wouldn't look if he promised not to tell me. And that was the agreement.
And the it drove me almost completely insane the entire night that he knew what I weighed, after 2 weeks of (almost) perfect behavior. But I didn't cave, and this morning I finally got to see how my hard work has paid off... Now, I don't mean to build this up or anything. It's not like I'm halfway to my goal in 2 weeks or anything insane like that. But! And loss makes me happy (:
So...
SW as of 01/06/2011: 220
CW as of today at 7:30am : 214.2
A loss of 5.8 pounds in two weeks! I'm ecstatic. I don't care if it's water weight or real weight or if it's because I peed before I weighed... haha ew... I'm very excited and this has just fueled my drive and motivation. (: *does a little chair dance*
Now I can start weighing in regularly. Every Tuesday morning.
And if I don't see that big of a difference every time... So what? I'm a healthier person, regardless.
Now, I have to focus on some school work due on Thursday. I hope everyone has as wonderful a day as I know I'm going to have... And if you aren't, then just keep on going because tomorrow will be better!
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
So last night I talked bf into going grocery shopping with me. And while we were walking around the store, I was telling him about how I wanted to skip the junk and buy more healthy foods. And without any prodding or persuasion AT ALL he said he had noticed how differently I'd been eating and he wanted to join me. He wants to lose around 25 pounds. No where near how much I want to lose, but I absolutely LOVE that he wants to join me in this lifestyle change and I'm so excited he's taking an interest in his weight and health 100% on his own. So, I officially have a live-in diet partner! (:
We bought all sorts of fruits and veggies and did some healthy meal planning. We are going to incorporate more fish into our diet, less starches, and we are going to reduce our sodium. And of course lots more raw/steamed veggies. He's more interested in the sodium reduction while I'm more concerned about calories, bad fats, and sugars. But we are totally on the same page and I LOVE it!
After shopping and enjoying a healthy dinner, we were chatting on the couch and the mention of weight came up. I told him I hadn't weighed myself in two weeks and I was really excited to see how much it'd changed. And that if it didn't change... I refused to be upset and let it deter me. So he asked me what I started at, and of course I told me. (We are way past being embarrassed about things like that...) So he decided to go weigh himself, and I went with him.
Then he tried getting me on the scale. I am a stickler about weighing at approximately the same time, on the same day, so I was adamantly against it. He said he really wanted to see, because he felt he'd be more motivated to try if he knew it made a difference. So I told him I'd step on the scale and wouldn't look if he promised not to tell me. And that was the agreement.
And the it drove me almost completely insane the entire night that he knew what I weighed, after 2 weeks of (almost) perfect behavior. But I didn't cave, and this morning I finally got to see how my hard work has paid off... Now, I don't mean to build this up or anything. It's not like I'm halfway to my goal in 2 weeks or anything insane like that. But! And loss makes me happy (:
So...
SW as of 01/06/2011: 220
CW as of today at 7:30am : 214.2
A loss of 5.8 pounds in two weeks! I'm ecstatic. I don't care if it's water weight or real weight or if it's because I peed before I weighed... haha ew... I'm very excited and this has just fueled my drive and motivation. (: *does a little chair dance*
Now I can start weighing in regularly. Every Tuesday morning.
And if I don't see that big of a difference every time... So what? I'm a healthier person, regardless.
Now, I have to focus on some school work due on Thursday. I hope everyone has as wonderful a day as I know I'm going to have... And if you aren't, then just keep on going because tomorrow will be better!
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Day 12 - I'm having a carb attack!
I seriously want a giant bowl of fettuccine alfredo soooo bad right now. Like, I'm starting to wonder if the urge will ever go away. On a normal day, I would swing by Fazoli's on the way home from work and satisfy my craving. But today, I drove right past and straight home. And now I have to find something in the fridge that sounds even remotely tasty compared to a big bowl of pasta.
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I ate well today tho, I think. Another stupid Starbucks Double Shot Mocha engery drink thing for breakfast because I keep forgetting to get my coffee ready the night before and I didn't have much extra time this morning. Sooo 200 there. And then a 6 inch wheat with turkey from subway. No cheese or dressing. And some steamed veggies and a yummy blueberry Greek yogurt. Lunch was like... 525. A little higher than normal, but whatever.
I wanna eat around 700 before the day is over. I suppose if I really wanted that pasta, I could probably make it work. But pasta is sooo heavy and I'm too in love with my before bed snacks like my sugar free pudding or my cocoa dusted almonds to give them up.
I'm not going to lie, I'm so excited to weigh myself on Tuesday. That will mark exactly 2 weeks since I began this exciting journey. I shouldn't get my hopes up, in case I don't see much of a change... but I'm looking forward to it none the less. And if I don't lose, well then I'm going to keep on going. Because maybe I will the next week.
Okay, I'm famished. I'm going to go make myself some dinner and then chill on the couch with Leo and watch something on TV. He laid across my hands as I typed three times. I think he's trying to tell me he needs some attention. He's a little purr-machine too. Here... I'll attach a photo of the number 1 man in my life ( besides the bf, I guess!) He's sucha stud muffin. :-p
I will see you all soon!
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
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I ate well today tho, I think. Another stupid Starbucks Double Shot Mocha engery drink thing for breakfast because I keep forgetting to get my coffee ready the night before and I didn't have much extra time this morning. Sooo 200 there. And then a 6 inch wheat with turkey from subway. No cheese or dressing. And some steamed veggies and a yummy blueberry Greek yogurt. Lunch was like... 525. A little higher than normal, but whatever.
I wanna eat around 700 before the day is over. I suppose if I really wanted that pasta, I could probably make it work. But pasta is sooo heavy and I'm too in love with my before bed snacks like my sugar free pudding or my cocoa dusted almonds to give them up.
I'm not going to lie, I'm so excited to weigh myself on Tuesday. That will mark exactly 2 weeks since I began this exciting journey. I shouldn't get my hopes up, in case I don't see much of a change... but I'm looking forward to it none the less. And if I don't lose, well then I'm going to keep on going. Because maybe I will the next week.
Okay, I'm famished. I'm going to go make myself some dinner and then chill on the couch with Leo and watch something on TV. He laid across my hands as I typed three times. I think he's trying to tell me he needs some attention. He's a little purr-machine too. Here... I'll attach a photo of the number 1 man in my life ( besides the bf, I guess!) He's sucha stud muffin. :-p
I will see you all soon!Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Day 11 - So this is weird...
So this is a kind of strange phenomenon I've been experiencing recently. Even when I eat very successfully through out the day, I still sometimes feel like I've messed up or failed in some way... Today in particular.
I had a terrible breakfast because I was running very, very late to work this morning. So, instead of making myself even more late and fixing my usual toast and coffee, I decided to buy one of those coffee energy drinks once I got to work. I know those are terrible for you, and are basically cancer and caffeine in a can, but I have to have my caffeine in the morning. So it was that or nothing. The Starbuck's Double Shot Mocha blah blah blah whatever was 200 calories for the can. Not too bad, considering the situation.
I drink gobs of water throughout the day and at lunch I had water, a 90-cal low fat cottage cheese cup, some steamed veggies and a Lean Cuisine beef and peppers meal. All together I figured it up to be around 380 calories. Now, that's ONLY 580 for the day. But when I got home, even though I was very well behaved all day and stayed very strictly to my diet, I felt bad. Like I failed at something and I should be disappointed in myself. I don't know what the heck is wrong with me... but I didn't let it derail me.
Dinner was a turkey sandwich on low cal whole wheat bread, lettuce, tomato, onion, dijon mustard and a tiny bit of co-jack cheese and a small shredded lettuce salad with no cal ranch dressing. And then a bowl of grapes and strawberries with some Reddi-Whip Lite Whipped Cream. I hate fruit. I'm more of a veggie kinda girl so anything to make the fruits more tolerable. All together that's still only like 550. And I'm pretty much done eating! I will have to have a snack or something though because 1,100 calories for the day just isn't enough. This is hard.
I still haven't worked exercise into my regime. I keep meaning to, but I stay pretty busy. I know that's an excuse. It's also really freakin' cold out right now. Another excuse, but I don't wanna go outside in 29 degree weather. Exxxxcuuuussseeesss.
What I really want to do is buy some exercise videos and do them when bf isn't in the apt. Hahah I don't think he'd laugh or really say anything, I'd just prefer it that way. (:
Here's my awesome attempt to incorporate fruit into my diet. It's fat free whipped topping! Only 15 calories a serving! haha And there are strawberries buried under there.
Oookay! I'm going to vegetate in front of the TV for a while now before bed. I had to work long shifts all weekend and I'm going to enjoy the peace and quiet tonight. Might just pop myself some popcorn too. (: I have minibags. Not for their healthier benefits but because we have a tiny, apartment sized microwave and normal bags don't fit! haha
I'll talk to all you guys soon!
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
I had a terrible breakfast because I was running very, very late to work this morning. So, instead of making myself even more late and fixing my usual toast and coffee, I decided to buy one of those coffee energy drinks once I got to work. I know those are terrible for you, and are basically cancer and caffeine in a can, but I have to have my caffeine in the morning. So it was that or nothing. The Starbuck's Double Shot Mocha blah blah blah whatever was 200 calories for the can. Not too bad, considering the situation.
I drink gobs of water throughout the day and at lunch I had water, a 90-cal low fat cottage cheese cup, some steamed veggies and a Lean Cuisine beef and peppers meal. All together I figured it up to be around 380 calories. Now, that's ONLY 580 for the day. But when I got home, even though I was very well behaved all day and stayed very strictly to my diet, I felt bad. Like I failed at something and I should be disappointed in myself. I don't know what the heck is wrong with me... but I didn't let it derail me.
Dinner was a turkey sandwich on low cal whole wheat bread, lettuce, tomato, onion, dijon mustard and a tiny bit of co-jack cheese and a small shredded lettuce salad with no cal ranch dressing. And then a bowl of grapes and strawberries with some Reddi-Whip Lite Whipped Cream. I hate fruit. I'm more of a veggie kinda girl so anything to make the fruits more tolerable. All together that's still only like 550. And I'm pretty much done eating! I will have to have a snack or something though because 1,100 calories for the day just isn't enough. This is hard.
I still haven't worked exercise into my regime. I keep meaning to, but I stay pretty busy. I know that's an excuse. It's also really freakin' cold out right now. Another excuse, but I don't wanna go outside in 29 degree weather. Exxxxcuuuussseeesss.
What I really want to do is buy some exercise videos and do them when bf isn't in the apt. Hahah I don't think he'd laugh or really say anything, I'd just prefer it that way. (:
Here's my awesome attempt to incorporate fruit into my diet. It's fat free whipped topping! Only 15 calories a serving! haha And there are strawberries buried under there.
Oookay! I'm going to vegetate in front of the TV for a while now before bed. I had to work long shifts all weekend and I'm going to enjoy the peace and quiet tonight. Might just pop myself some popcorn too. (: I have minibags. Not for their healthier benefits but because we have a tiny, apartment sized microwave and normal bags don't fit! hahaI'll talk to all you guys soon!
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Day 4 - I'm Slowly Getting The Hang of this Blog
So I haven't been able to dedicate as much time to learning my way around this blog as I normally would when I start something. But I'm slowly figuring it out, I think.
Today was good and bad at the same time. If my new "Food Logs" page worked the way I expected it to, you should be able to go and look at what I ate today. It was good in that I had ZERO cheating and bad because I barely broke 1,000 calories. That's completely unacceptable, in my opinion. I'm not going to be one of those people who starve themselves. But I have trouble finding that happen 1,500 calories medium. I'm going to buy some 100 calorie packs to keep in my purse along with my emergency apple and almonds. (:
I had a very delicious baked potato with a little bit of cheese, salad, and no cal dressing on top for dinner. Ever since we came across this little restaurant that makes baked potatoes with absolutely anything you could ever think of on top, we have been imitating it at home. I like veggies. Bf likes meat and cheese. He's such a boy.
Speaking of bf, I think I'll call him M. While I very clearly state in my about me that I'm single, I do have a boy. It's just we've been together for almost 5 years and since we aren't married, I am technically single. Or unmarried. Whatever. We moved in together about a year ago. We moved like 2 hours from home, into a tiny apartment, to go to school. He's absolutely fabulous, minus the whole... still hasn't popped the question thing. But we will get there eventually. I need a year to get all thin and sexy anyway. :-p
I am going to explore this blog design thing a little bit more and go read some forums. I'm still sort of in, creep around the forums mode, because I'm new and still getting my footing. But soon I'll stop creeping and start participating! This had kept me so on track at night, my WORST snacking time.
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
Also, after looking around at some of your blogs, I've decided to follow suit and include a current photo. My "before" picture someday! This was Thanksgiving 2011. I'd say I was right at 220.
Today was good and bad at the same time. If my new "Food Logs" page worked the way I expected it to, you should be able to go and look at what I ate today. It was good in that I had ZERO cheating and bad because I barely broke 1,000 calories. That's completely unacceptable, in my opinion. I'm not going to be one of those people who starve themselves. But I have trouble finding that happen 1,500 calories medium. I'm going to buy some 100 calorie packs to keep in my purse along with my emergency apple and almonds. (:
I had a very delicious baked potato with a little bit of cheese, salad, and no cal dressing on top for dinner. Ever since we came across this little restaurant that makes baked potatoes with absolutely anything you could ever think of on top, we have been imitating it at home. I like veggies. Bf likes meat and cheese. He's such a boy.
Speaking of bf, I think I'll call him M. While I very clearly state in my about me that I'm single, I do have a boy. It's just we've been together for almost 5 years and since we aren't married, I am technically single. Or unmarried. Whatever. We moved in together about a year ago. We moved like 2 hours from home, into a tiny apartment, to go to school. He's absolutely fabulous, minus the whole... still hasn't popped the question thing. But we will get there eventually. I need a year to get all thin and sexy anyway. :-p
I am going to explore this blog design thing a little bit more and go read some forums. I'm still sort of in, creep around the forums mode, because I'm new and still getting my footing. But soon I'll stop creeping and start participating! This had kept me so on track at night, my WORST snacking time.
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
Also, after looking around at some of your blogs, I've decided to follow suit and include a current photo. My "before" picture someday! This was Thanksgiving 2011. I'd say I was right at 220.
Friday, January 6, 2012
Day 3 - I had an "ah-ha" moment today
So something occurred to me today. I don't write a 25 page research paper by just sitting down and typing. And I would never go on vacation without first (almost painstakingly) planning. So why would I ever think I could completely overhaul the way I think about food and eating without first having a carefully thought out plan? A set course of action. Small, tiny steps for my day-to-day.
And then I discovered how much easier and considerably less intimidating dieting is when I make a plan. If I just wander aimlessly through the day without any preemptive thoughts for my meals, I'll likely make poor, unprepared decisions.
So I've decided, until I get better at managing my meals, I'll stick to somewhat boring meal guidelines. These consist of coffee in the morning with a little bit of sugar (something I'm really not ready to part with) and skim milk. Two pieces of whole wheat toast. I found whole wheat bread with only 35 calories per slice, which I found amazing. And sugar-free, fiber enriched strawberry preserves. This will be my breakfast for a while. I've never been a good breakfast eater, but I hear it's a good idea.
I've also found a calorie-free, sugar-free, carb-free honey mustard salad dressing. And it's actually pretty tasty for a diet dressing. There were other types like thousand island and ranch, but I'm partial to honey mustard. Now, given it has basically nothing in it, I can only assume it's just a bottle of cancer. But, eliminating artificial sweeteners is a bridge I'm not prepared to cross just yet. So for now, my lunch salads with chopped up sliced turkey and zero-everything dressing will have to do, cancer or no cancer.
Dinner is a little more difficult because I'm eating with my boyfriend almost every night. He's not at all interested in dieting the way I am. So I just have to make good decisions. Last night after work we went to Logan's Steakhouse. It was soooo tempting to order something terrible for me and eat the whole basket of dinner rolls. But I didn't. I had one dinner roll (which was still probably a mistake), a house salad with lite dressing on the side, a small sirloin and a sweet potato in lieu of the normal baked potato. A healthier choice, I hear.
Also, I haven't chosen an official weigh-day. With classes starting this week, I just have to see when I can be most consistent. But this morning I weighed myself to establish a starting weight.
Start Weight: 220.0
Goal Weight: 150.0
Pounds to Lose: 70
That is a seemingly huge number. I'm not much for trying to stick to very specific weight goals by specific dates, because I think that can be very discouraging. However, I did figure up if I lose 1.5pounds per week, for almost exactly 12 months, I'll reach my goal weight. Nice and slow and steady and hopefully forever.
I'm also not sure I will be 100% satisfied at 150, though right now it sounds absolutely perfect. And I will tentatively change my final goal as time progresses.
I feel very positively about this. I've done really well the past two days. And I can say that with a completely clear conscience, even if I just ate a piece of dark chocolate 15 minutes ago. And that's because I ate ONE piece and I was happy. Not half the bag. (:
I hope anyone reading this is also having luck and feeling positive about their choices! And if not, then I say just keep trying. Mistakes are nothing to worry about as long as you are taking care to avoid making them again.
This post was sort of ramble-y. But I'm still getting my footing!
Here’s to hard work and determination,
-E
And then I discovered how much easier and considerably less intimidating dieting is when I make a plan. If I just wander aimlessly through the day without any preemptive thoughts for my meals, I'll likely make poor, unprepared decisions.
So I've decided, until I get better at managing my meals, I'll stick to somewhat boring meal guidelines. These consist of coffee in the morning with a little bit of sugar (something I'm really not ready to part with) and skim milk. Two pieces of whole wheat toast. I found whole wheat bread with only 35 calories per slice, which I found amazing. And sugar-free, fiber enriched strawberry preserves. This will be my breakfast for a while. I've never been a good breakfast eater, but I hear it's a good idea.
I've also found a calorie-free, sugar-free, carb-free honey mustard salad dressing. And it's actually pretty tasty for a diet dressing. There were other types like thousand island and ranch, but I'm partial to honey mustard. Now, given it has basically nothing in it, I can only assume it's just a bottle of cancer. But, eliminating artificial sweeteners is a bridge I'm not prepared to cross just yet. So for now, my lunch salads with chopped up sliced turkey and zero-everything dressing will have to do, cancer or no cancer.
Dinner is a little more difficult because I'm eating with my boyfriend almost every night. He's not at all interested in dieting the way I am. So I just have to make good decisions. Last night after work we went to Logan's Steakhouse. It was soooo tempting to order something terrible for me and eat the whole basket of dinner rolls. But I didn't. I had one dinner roll (which was still probably a mistake), a house salad with lite dressing on the side, a small sirloin and a sweet potato in lieu of the normal baked potato. A healthier choice, I hear.
Also, I haven't chosen an official weigh-day. With classes starting this week, I just have to see when I can be most consistent. But this morning I weighed myself to establish a starting weight.
Start Weight: 220.0
Goal Weight: 150.0
Pounds to Lose: 70
That is a seemingly huge number. I'm not much for trying to stick to very specific weight goals by specific dates, because I think that can be very discouraging. However, I did figure up if I lose 1.5pounds per week, for almost exactly 12 months, I'll reach my goal weight. Nice and slow and steady and hopefully forever.
I'm also not sure I will be 100% satisfied at 150, though right now it sounds absolutely perfect. And I will tentatively change my final goal as time progresses.
I feel very positively about this. I've done really well the past two days. And I can say that with a completely clear conscience, even if I just ate a piece of dark chocolate 15 minutes ago. And that's because I ate ONE piece and I was happy. Not half the bag. (:
I hope anyone reading this is also having luck and feeling positive about their choices! And if not, then I say just keep trying. Mistakes are nothing to worry about as long as you are taking care to avoid making them again.
This post was sort of ramble-y. But I'm still getting my footing!
Here’s to hard work and determination,
-E
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Day 1: Admitting I have a problem
I’m going to skip the traditional introductions here and just jump right in. If you’re interested in learning a bit about me, I suggest the aptly titled “A little about me” tab at the top of this page. (:
It seems to me my weight fluctuates in extremes. At my lowest adult weight, I was around 162. At my highest, 235. I’m 5′6 and have been since I was 18. According to that wonderful BMI chart, I have never been a healthy weight. And while I make no habits of doubting the great minds that designed it, I’m not sure I believe I should ever weigh only 114 pounds. But as I type this, I wonder if that’s not just another excuse.
My ultimate goal is to weigh around 150 pounds. I haven’t weighed myself in several weeks, so I’m not sure exactly how much I have to lose. But I do know it’s quite a bit and will take me a while. Starting tomorrow, or in a few days, I will begin weighing myself weekly. I just have to set a day of the week and time of day I can commit to.
I love lists, and feel most productive when I’m making them and adhering to them. This is a collection of reasons why I want to lose weight (including, but not limited to… I’m sure I’ll leave something out).
- I would like to avoid all the nasty diseases I will inevitably inherit if I remain unhealthy and overweight. These include diabetes, high blood pressure, and cancer. Cancer may not be directly linked to obesity, but it runs rampant in my family, and the healthier I am, the better chances I feel I’ll have to avoid it.
- I want more energy. It really pains me to admit I’m 22 years old and I feel like an 80 year old woman sometimes.
- I want to see if losing weight has any effect on my asthma. At 19 I was diagnosed with adult-onset asthma. A complete shock to me. I would love to minimize my symptoms, if at all possible.
- I want to improve my upper gi health. I’ve been on acid reflux medication for several years and the only times I remember not needing it is when I weighed less.
- I want to be lean, fit, and flexible. I want to appear strong, not marshmallowy.
Now for the less noble, but equally important reasons…
- I have noticed I have two “go-to” pairs of jeans. There’s no two ways about it… they are my fat jeans. I want to be able to comfortably and confidently wear ALL the jeans in my closet, even the tight ones.
- I want to shop where ever I want. I don’t care if it sounds shallow, I want to shop at the stores that stop at size 12. And I want to choose clothes based on how they look, not always how they look/fit.
- I want the first thing I assume people notice to not be my weight. I don’t want to be described as “the bigger one” anymore.
- I don’t want to avoid having my picture taken anymore
- To be able to wear shorts confidently
- To be able to wear a swim suit confidently
- To be able to feel comfortable, instead of bloated and big all the time
- To feel sexy taking a bath or sitting in a hot tub.
- So I can finally get a short haircut and not worry whether my head will look like a giant melon.
- To be able to sit with my legs crossed for long periods of time
- To be able to walk in heels for long periods of time
- So people believe I am the intelligent, capable person I know I am, and not someone who is fat and unhealthy and unable to take care of herself.
- To simply feel good about myself.
- And finally, to be able to tell people I was there once, and that they can lose the weight too. I want to be an inspiration to others.
Alright! I feel like I’ve written a book.
I’m not sure I like this layout, yet. The colors are kinda meh and I’m having issues with formatting.
I feel like this was a successful first post. My subsequent posts will be able food, weighing myself, fitness techniques I’m utilizing. This will be a place for accountability. And a place for new ideas to jump start my weight loss. I’ll see you all again very soon! Good luck, everyone.
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
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