I had a terrible breakfast because I was running very, very late to work this morning. So, instead of making myself even more late and fixing my usual toast and coffee, I decided to buy one of those coffee energy drinks once I got to work. I know those are terrible for you, and are basically cancer and caffeine in a can, but I have to have my caffeine in the morning. So it was that or nothing. The Starbuck's Double Shot Mocha blah blah blah whatever was 200 calories for the can. Not too bad, considering the situation.
I drink gobs of water throughout the day and at lunch I had water, a 90-cal low fat cottage cheese cup, some steamed veggies and a Lean Cuisine beef and peppers meal. All together I figured it up to be around 380 calories. Now, that's ONLY 580 for the day. But when I got home, even though I was very well behaved all day and stayed very strictly to my diet, I felt bad. Like I failed at something and I should be disappointed in myself. I don't know what the heck is wrong with me... but I didn't let it derail me.
Dinner was a turkey sandwich on low cal whole wheat bread, lettuce, tomato, onion, dijon mustard and a tiny bit of co-jack cheese and a small shredded lettuce salad with no cal ranch dressing. And then a bowl of grapes and strawberries with some Reddi-Whip Lite Whipped Cream. I hate fruit. I'm more of a veggie kinda girl so anything to make the fruits more tolerable. All together that's still only like 550. And I'm pretty much done eating! I will have to have a snack or something though because 1,100 calories for the day just isn't enough. This is hard.
I still haven't worked exercise into my regime. I keep meaning to, but I stay pretty busy. I know that's an excuse. It's also really freakin' cold out right now. Another excuse, but I don't wanna go outside in 29 degree weather. Exxxxcuuuussseeesss.
What I really want to do is buy some exercise videos and do them when bf isn't in the apt. Hahah I don't think he'd laugh or really say anything, I'd just prefer it that way. (:
Here's my awesome attempt to incorporate fruit into my diet. It's fat free whipped topping! Only 15 calories a serving! haha And there are strawberries buried under there.
Oookay! I'm going to vegetate in front of the TV for a while now before bed. I had to work long shifts all weekend and I'm going to enjoy the peace and quiet tonight. Might just pop myself some popcorn too. (: I have minibags. Not for their healthier benefits but because we have a tiny, apartment sized microwave and normal bags don't fit! hahaI'll talk to all you guys soon!
Here's to hard work and determination,
-E
