Day 46 - I'm Becoming Too OCD

So I am a crazy, calorie counting fiend. I've said this a few times I think. Today just really proves it though.

I use an app on my iPhone called Lose It! It's an awesome app because I can scan the barcode of something and it instantly has all the nutritional information and all I have to input is how much I'm eating. In the mornings, I like to plan out my day. So I'll decide what I'm eating and I'll plug it all in ahead of time. Then, when I go through the day, I stay on track instead of just mindlessly eating or randomly picking whatever I want for lunch/dinner.

This WORKS for me. It keeps me on plan... It keeps my calories in check... It keeps me sane. I don't like having to think about my food ALL DAY so when I do it in the morning, everything is thought about and I just have to follow it.

WELL. Today, about 5 minutes before I was leaving for my lunch break, bf asks if I wanna get pizza with him and some work friends/co-workers. I hate being anti-social, which I often am... But I said no. Then he pushed a little harder. He *really* wanted me to go with him. I still said no. I brought my lunch. I already planned it out. Another push... He'll pay, he says. He really doesn't want to leave me out. At this point I wanted to just scream. You aren't leaving me out. I AM LEAVING ME OUT. But... I didn't. I agreed. And I ate like half of a slice of pizza (which was a ridiculous 150 calories, btw). Then, when I got to work and scarfed my planned meal. Because I'm stubborn like that.

I don't mean to over react... but I have a way I do things. And I know he wasn't trying to be a pain in the ass. He was trying to include me in his lunch plans. But I couldn't help but be so angry with him. Uggghh... Am I insane? Just completely insane??

I still ate around 1,030 calories today at this point. I'm going to have a snack in a little while. But I'm craving chocolate like it's no body's business... I'm trying to let that pass first.

I am also trying a fun new snack I read about yesterday! You take a low fat string cheese and dip it in a couple tablespoons of warmed marinara sauce. It sounds kinda like mozzarella sticks... only without the breading. I'm really jazzed about it.

Besides all this, it's been a pretty alright weekend. I'm reading for a day off. And REALLY ready for Spring Break. I'm kicking my Spring Break off with a concert and a fancy hotel stay in Indianapolis. I do NOT intend to be on plan this day. I plan to eat and drink a ridiculous amount and probably suffer the consequences the next weigh in. Worth it. Oh yea,  I don't think I ever said where I'm from... Surprise! Indiana! haha

Alright... it's snack time. I want a bowl of cereal I think. I'm so in love with my Special K with Red Berries. (: Mmm

Here's to hard work and determination,

-E